Sunday, October 31, 2010

Mary J Blige-I'm going down COVER

THANK YOU HEARTACHE

THIS IS A LETTER OF GRATITUDE. DO NOT MISCONSTRUED. THE WORDS YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ ARE RAW REAL AND UNCUT. A LETTER TO MY PAST, A LETTER TO THE HEARTACHES AND HEARTBREAKS. I LIFT MY GLASS AND TOAST TO YOU. THANK YOU.
BECAUSE OF THE LIES YOU TOLD ME, THE FALSE PROMISES THAT WERE WHISPERED IN MY EAR, THE DREAMS THAT WERE SOLD TO ME OF RICHES AND HAPPINESS I WOULD NEVER SEE, I FOLLOWED YOU FAITHFULLY BUT A VEIL OF DENIAL COVERED MY EYES REFRAINING ME TO SEE THE TRUTH. BECAUSE OF THE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND THE REVERSE PYSCHOLOGY THAT YOU ALWAYS SEEMED TO PULL ON ME, BUT I FELL FOR IT SO IT WAS MY FAULT IN A WAY YOU SEE. I ALLOWED YOU TO BRAINWASH A MIND THAT WAS ONCE PURE AND FOCUSED ON THE GOOD OF MANKIND AND GAVE YOU THE POWER TO IMPLANT DEVIOUS PLANS AND VISIONS THAT WERE UNTRUE OF ALL THOSE AROUND ME. IT CONSUMED ME. CONSUMED MY VERY BEING DEEP DOWN TO THE VERY CORE. I WAS NO LONGER WHO I SAID I WAS. NOTHING LESS NOTHING MORE. REALITY BECAME HARD TO DISTINGUISH AS I REMAINED IN A WARPED STATE OF MIND. NO LONGER WAS I MY OWN BUT A PRISONER TO SOCIETY , RELIGION  AND WORST OF ALL  YOU. YOU HEARTACHE. EVERYONE OUNCE OF ME, EVERY PART OF ME WAS BROKEN INTO TINY, UNSEEN, MICRO FRAGMENTS SCATTERED ACROSS AN OLD WOODEN FLOOR THAT CREAKED EVERY TIME I TOOK A STEP REMINDING ME OF A CHILDHOOD I HAD LONG BEFORE. AND FOR A LONG TIME HEARTACHE I BLAMED YOU, AND FOR A LONG TIME I DETESTED YOU, AND FOR A LONG TIME I LOATHED YOU DOWN TO VERY PIT OF YOU. I BLAMED YOU FOR IT ALL, MY ACTIONS, MY INTENSION , MY THOUGHT PROCESS, MY HUMAN BEHAVIOR, MY POOR HUMAN INTERACTION SKILLS, MY FEAR OF LOVING AGAIN...I BLAMED YOU. BUT AFTER MUCH DEEP THOUGHT, COMTEMPLATION I KNOW NOW NOT TO BLAME HEARTACHE BUT TO THANK IT. BECAUSE IT'S A LESSON LEARNED. EVERY EXPERIENCE , EVERY MOMENT IS A LESSON LEARNED. AND I AM WHO I AM TODAY BECAUSE OF YOU HEARTACHE. I AM STRONGER. WISER. LOVING. PASSIONATE. AND I CAN CONTINUE TO GO ON. BUT INSTEAD OF LISTING ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS THAT I HAVE GAINED FROM LIFE I RATHER SHOW YOU. EACH DAY, EVERYDAY HEARTACHE ALL THAT I DO WILL BE TO SHOW YOU THAT I'M STILL HERE. 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

MY BROTHER IN LAW

Be on the lookout for my brother in law an aspiring Film Director. Who is extremely gifted and knows exactly what he is doing and is always set in his vision. He is motivated and driven to be the best of the best.
MOVIE POSTER DONE BY MY COUSIN LUIS CRUZ
http://www.facebook.com/lcruz0811

Here is a link to the short film THE VOICE
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=37530&id=100000020454217#!/video/video.php?v=113042772080374

Directed By: Luis A. Miranda
MONKEY'S DREAM PRODUCTIONS

-I am a film director from the Bronx, New York City... now living in Cary, North Carolina.My company specializes in all video production, whether it be feature films, short films, music videos, commercials, documentaries, weddings, birthdays, etc.
I will be posting a few pieces of our work from time to time.
I hope you enjoy.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

NY 10/23-11/7: Zachary’s Smile Attic Sale

NY 10/23-11/7: Zachary’s Smile Attic Sale

SICK X IISH

So often I get made fun of by people because I am always sick. Well yes because the night before I sit and plot how sick I can be the next day. Because I truely enjoy being ill all the time. Because I asked for it. Are you kidding me?! Like sometimes I do want to scream and curse people out. Why would you get on my case for being sick?! Why dont I get on your case for being stupid. I have FMS how many times can I stress that. And I get sick alot because of it, I can not get over simple common colds like everyone else it is not that simple because if it was don't you think I would be doing that already? Seriously some people lack compassion and common sense.

Well I have been sick and finally on Monday I went to the emergency room. The doctor said I have bronchitis and said that I need to rest at home because it can easily develop into an pnemonia. Which is something I am trying to avoid because an pnemonia can be extremely dangerous if not treated correctly and on time. So I have been at home. Feeling like poop.
Trying to make sure to take my meds and get rest. But I am still sick! Well pray for me lovelys that I will be back to normal in no time.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

KANYE WEST-RUNAWAY



I am not  Kanye West Fan, but I must say this video was brialliantly done artisticly. Kanye West is a visionary with alot to say in his work. Often debated he is said to be apart of the illuminati. But the truth is , the truth we will NOT know. So assumptions will be made. I can get into this and start preaching but I won't. That will take up too much time. But sometimes I do wonder. All in all, this was by the far his best work.
At first upon viewing his short film I was perplexed. I thought the female was a fallen angel until I finally started putting pieces together. She  is a phoneix; better known in Greek, Persian,Romans,Egyptians,Chinese and Arabic mythologies to be The Firebird. The Phoenix has a lifespan from 500-1000 years till it reaches the end of her cycle in which it builds itself a nest and ignite into strong powerful flames to result in ashes. From which a new young phoenix is reborn. The cry of The Phoenix is told to be a beautiful song and in some myths it is known to turn into a person. Hence Kanye's Film. It/She is immortal. How can one live an immortal life watching those you love around you die but you to live forever only dying over and over again in a burst of flames. I wonder how a Phoenix will feel, will it have any emotion at all or just be numb?
To read more on facts of the mythological creature I got my information from this link below
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phoenix_(mythology)

What do you think of his film?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

New Gospel Album

So Far this song is one of my favorites. It has so much soul to it.
Israel Houghton-LOVE GOD.LOVE PEOPLE.THE LONDON SERIES TRACK 3 "LOVE REV"
Listen to the words. Makes so much sense and it can all be so simple. But we are NOT a simple people. Technology, Greed, Materialistic Items, Social Media, Money, Fame, Fortune, Looks have all taken over our lives. And yet we complain of what we don't have instead of looking at what we already have and what others don't have.

‎"What if the I and the ME turned into THEY and the WE, together WE could be, the change that WE all want to see"


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Monday, October 11, 2010

My Solace.


                                                     http://www.deviantart.com/#/d30jz9s

My Solace
As I come to terms
of everything that once was
I sigh a deep sigh
knowing that things will never be the same.
Gazing into the far off distance
I am overwhelmed with a feeling of nostalgia
I hear the echos of laughter
and see the warm smiles.
Can they see me?
The ghost of me that haunts the memories of my past
Can they hear me?
The ghost of me that haunts the vivid pictures of my childhood
that replay over and over in my mind.
My Solace
of whom I wish to embrace.
The little girl who danced before
in the suns rays , laughing at the angels who tickled her.
My Solace
How I await your visits
in your presence I take refuge
and my heart is at ease.
-Cynthia L. Flores

Sunday, October 10, 2010

SIGMA BRUSH REVIEW BY DULCECANDY


http://www.youtube./com/dulcecandy87
does a reivew on SIGMA BRUSHES , the travel size.
it comes in a cute hot pink clutch
and is said to have the same quality as the actual size brush.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

WHO'S THAT CHICK

SAN LOCOS NIGHT

SAN LOCOS
A FUN DRUNK NIGHT
THIS IS OUR SPOT TO GET AWESOME FROZEN MAGARITAS
SO GREAT THAT YOU WALK HOME AND LOSE
ONE SHOE [INSIDE JOKE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED TO ME]

PHOTOSHOOT IN FLORIDA

PHOTOGRAPHY : NATALY VALERIO [eNVy PHOTOGRAPHER]
MAKEUP ARTIST: CYNTHIA LEE
WARDROBE:CASSANDRA MARTINEZ
MODEL:AMANDA VALDEZ

I Believe...

Love Me or Leave Me Alone.

So I switched up my look ....yes once again. I get bored easily and I am always up for the challenge of trying a new look. So this time around I decided to do a bold new cut. I went extremely short, the shortest I have ever been in my 25 years of existence. Trust me when I say that I was terrified. But life is all about taking risks. You can't always be afraid of change and trying new things.

So I cut it off! I have had mixed reviews. But what matters is this, I love it! It feels liberating. I feel brand new and sexy. I have developed a new found love and confidence that I never had before. I mean everyone else notices the change in me and like the new me. But it is not just appearence wise, its attitude wise which is most important of all. I have a new outlook on life. I refuse to sulk in my problems because you know what? I am not the only individual who has issues in life, everyone has. And it can be worse. So I am counting my blessings. God has blessed my family and I tremendously and I trust that he will continue to do so.

Someone commented on my facebook that I look like Halle Berry with my new cut. That is such a compliment because she is simply stunning but I do not come no where near her beauty. I am just me, simply Cynthia Lee [b.k.a Cyndy Monroe]. You either love me take me as I am or get the heck outta my way. It is that simple. Love it.

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